How pathetic am I?

you do not have to be pathetic. it is your choosing of your thought process. look inside of yourself and ask-why do I feel this way. you may want to make a list of your PROS and CONS. ask yourself-what is it that I am lacking and do I see it in a man. you can always ask, a friend, parents, other parents, clergyman or clergywoman, social worker etc. I am uming that you are young?, you should not be having these thoughts at your young age. it will take some investing and investigation into yourself but it will be worth it. start now and enjoy life. good luck send me an email for your personal quest.